[Peter would be glad to know that Ben can't imagine experiencing it too, it is indeed some awful shit. ]
I'm sorry.
[Sorry that Ben has to know what it's like to be die in some horrible, painful way. Sorry that he totally lost his cool and made Ben sit through it. Not that he'd made Ben do it, but Peter's logic is being weird right now. Now that Peter's at least mostly regained his composure he's mentally kicking himself for dragging someone else into his problems. He'd managed to keep his shit together the whole time he was in Hadriel, and then he gets here and completely loses his shit and fuck was that A TEAR escaping from HIS EYEBALL???
Unacceptable, he wipes that shit away and pretends that nothing happened. Even though Ben just said he wouldn't judge. That is very cool of Ben, but Peter is going to judge himself harshly enough for the both of them. He needs to keep his shit together because uh... something something Spider-Man. He's tired, he's not thinking too great right now.
Honestly though Ben being here and just affirming that it's okay to not be okay isn't really helping Peter not have an emotional sad boy moment, but maybe he just needs to let himself have that right now. He's still going to try not to have one in front of someone else, but there might be a few more tears. Just a few.]
Thanks. That-- that means a lot.
...We really need to find something less depressing to bond over in the future, just sayin'.
[The jokes mean he's feeling better. Or at least it means that he's calmed down. Either way it's a win.]
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I'm sorry.
[Sorry that Ben has to know what it's like to be die in some horrible, painful way. Sorry that he totally lost his cool and made Ben sit through it. Not that he'd made Ben do it, but Peter's logic is being weird right now. Now that Peter's at least mostly regained his composure he's mentally kicking himself for dragging someone else into his problems. He'd managed to keep his shit together the whole time he was in Hadriel, and then he gets here and completely loses his shit and fuck was that A TEAR escaping from HIS EYEBALL???
Unacceptable, he wipes that shit away and pretends that nothing happened. Even though Ben just said he wouldn't judge. That is very cool of Ben, but Peter is going to judge himself harshly enough for the both of them. He needs to keep his shit together because uh... something something Spider-Man. He's tired, he's not thinking too great right now.
Honestly though Ben being here and just affirming that it's okay to not be okay isn't really helping Peter not have an emotional sad boy moment, but maybe he just needs to let himself have that right now. He's still going to try not to have one in front of someone else, but there might be a few more tears. Just a few.]
Thanks. That-- that means a lot.
...We really need to find something less depressing to bond over in the future, just sayin'.
[The jokes mean he's feeling better. Or at least it means that he's calmed down. Either way it's a win.]