[ Peter could be the best actor in the world and Ben wouldn't be buying what he's selling. He hangs his head, hands coming up to grab fistfuls of his hair as he insists: ]
I know what it looks like when I'm - when a guy's about to get ripped in half, okay, so no way are you fine.
[ He remembers the accelerated healing but that doesn't mean Peter hadn't been injured. It doesn't make that close call any less of a close call. A few more seconds, and would he have been too late? Would Peter be dead now? That thought freezes Ben from the inside, and he can't stop the images rushing in his head, of what it would have looked like, if that had happened. He doesn't need to use much of his imagination at all.
Ben can tell that Peter's trying to calm him down, the way he'd comforted Peter earlier. But how different the situations are. Peter's just a kid who had gotten killed in this awful, horrific event. Ben is someone who knows deep down that all the people who called him a monster all those years were right after all. Not comparable. He doesn't deserve comforting. Not when all this is on him. He could have done better. Should have. ]
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[ Peter could be the best actor in the world and Ben wouldn't be buying what he's selling. He hangs his head, hands coming up to grab fistfuls of his hair as he insists: ]
I know what it looks like when I'm - when a guy's about to get ripped in half, okay, so no way are you fine.
[ He remembers the accelerated healing but that doesn't mean Peter hadn't been injured. It doesn't make that close call any less of a close call. A few more seconds, and would he have been too late? Would Peter be dead now? That thought freezes Ben from the inside, and he can't stop the images rushing in his head, of what it would have looked like, if that had happened. He doesn't need to use much of his imagination at all.
Ben can tell that Peter's trying to calm him down, the way he'd comforted Peter earlier. But how different the situations are. Peter's just a kid who had gotten killed in this awful, horrific event. Ben is someone who knows deep down that all the people who called him a monster all those years were right after all. Not comparable. He doesn't deserve comforting. Not when all this is on him. He could have done better. Should have. ]
You could've died. Again.