[Carlisle will take what he can get as far as understanding goes, especially on a topic that is clearly too close to the heart. No one finds forgiveness within themselves overnight — even he hasn't managed to do so after death. They are ever works-in-progress.
However, that doesn't mean Carlisle is giving up on this matter, or on Qubit. His friend has clearly spent far longer focusing on the problems of others than on himself, swallowing this grief down time and time again, refusing to let it escape. It's a unique kind of suffering, a strangling, suffocating creature that infests in the back of one's mind; it colors their perception of not only the past, but the present and future, as well. It taints every decision, turning them into ones that must be considered and reconsidered over and over again, lest they bring to light one's mistakes, one's fatal flaws and unforgivable sins. If they ever did, they could be the end of them.
And they would deserve it, or so they believe: they see themselves as monsters, after all.
As Qubit gets moving, Carlisle follows along without hesitation. Apparently, not even all Qubit has revealed is enough to make Carlisle abandon him. He silently accepts Qubit's apology, deciding to steer clear of Tony for the moment.]
Tell me of your other friends. You said there were still two when you left?
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However, that doesn't mean Carlisle is giving up on this matter, or on Qubit. His friend has clearly spent far longer focusing on the problems of others than on himself, swallowing this grief down time and time again, refusing to let it escape. It's a unique kind of suffering, a strangling, suffocating creature that infests in the back of one's mind; it colors their perception of not only the past, but the present and future, as well. It taints every decision, turning them into ones that must be considered and reconsidered over and over again, lest they bring to light one's mistakes, one's fatal flaws and unforgivable sins. If they ever did, they could be the end of them.
And they would deserve it, or so they believe: they see themselves as monsters, after all.
As Qubit gets moving, Carlisle follows along without hesitation. Apparently, not even all Qubit has revealed is enough to make Carlisle abandon him. He silently accepts Qubit's apology, deciding to steer clear of Tony for the moment.]
Tell me of your other friends. You said there were still two when you left?