[He doesn't understand. He was so sure of this, so sure he'd be freeing Onni from something by putting it all out in the open, but Onni is more upset than ever--can Lalli do anything else? Why does Onni do this to himself?--and Lalli only feels lost.]
But...
[Even thinking this makes tears prick at his eyes, makes his chest ache like he's scraping something painful and rotten out of his heart that should never see the light of day and thrusting it out into the open. Why is Onni making him say this? He'd thought he'd known the answer, but now he feels like he knows nothing at all.]
If Tuuri had come back instead of me, you wouldn't have left her.
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But...
[Even thinking this makes tears prick at his eyes, makes his chest ache like he's scraping something painful and rotten out of his heart that should never see the light of day and thrusting it out into the open. Why is Onni making him say this? He'd thought he'd known the answer, but now he feels like he knows nothing at all.]
If Tuuri had come back instead of me, you wouldn't have left her.
[It's not a question. And yet, it is.]