[Some part of Onni is angry at Lalli, in a way. Lalli had done things over the past few days and particularly today, that had hurt Onni badly, he's still hurting. But any anger he feels toward Lalli is softened by the knowledge of how badly Lalli had been hurting in order to do what he did.

When Lalli tells him to just be angry at him then, Onni shakes his head.]

It doesn't work like that. I did things to hurt you, to make you run away like that. I was angry that you didn't tell me where you went and that you were safe.

[His voice goes breathy for a moment, tense.]

I was so scared, Lalli

[A moment, to catch his breath, and then he speaks again, a little more even this time.]

But I understand why, now. I don't understand her or what she did. I don't want to.