["I'm dead inside" is what he almost says, but that might sound less like an lol just kidding joke and more like he needs therapy, soooo.]

It bothers me, I just... I think I'm just used to it? The last place I was stuck was even worse on the psychological horror front, you just get desensitized to some things after a while.

[The secret is "pretend everything is okay all the time" but y'know.]