[ Ben winces just a little when she mentions what he'd done back there. Well, that's one question answered. He admits: ]
I - didn't know if you'd seen that.
[ They'd both been running and all his attention had been focused on stopping the threat, so he hadn't known whether or not she looked back or just kept going. He had been kind of hoping she hadn't. But, of course, he isn't that lucky.
The fact that she had seen, and was so calm about it - well, even if Klaus had warned her what his powers are, that shows she is someone who can handle a lot. Ben knows how horrifying his powers are. How horrifying he is. Even glimpsing that for a few seconds is enough to send most people screaming.
Some of the tension in his gut loosens when she says Klaus hadn't really gone beyond talking what was relevant to his own life. He should have known that. Should've trusted his brother more. But it's been a point of conflict, before. Klaus is so open, compared to Ben. He just talks about stuff in a way that Ben doesn't - or couldn't. ]
I've tried to be here for him. But I- there's been so much I haven't protected him from.
[ Now that he'd asked those questioned, acted so intense and strange, if he just leaves things without explanation, what is she going to think? He's sort of painted himself into a corner here where, in being so insistent on knowing what she knows, he now kind of has to explain why, and in doing so, tell her a little. But he would rather do it, himself, than worry about how someone else might have framed it.
So he speaks, words coming out in fits and starts, painfully. Saying them is like pulling teeth, but at least he can manage it. Because Julie had said she killed someone as a kid, too, so maybe she won't look at him too differently, after. ]
Sorry to- be weird. I - thought maybe he'd told you more, because of what you said. Because, with the Umbrella Academy, I mean, we all... killed people. Even Klaus a couple times. Just... um. [ The silence stretches, taut and awkward, until Ben manages: ] Most of it. Was me. I was the- whenever a lot of people needed to be dead, that was my job.
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I - didn't know if you'd seen that.
[ They'd both been running and all his attention had been focused on stopping the threat, so he hadn't known whether or not she looked back or just kept going. He had been kind of hoping she hadn't. But, of course, he isn't that lucky.
The fact that she had seen, and was so calm about it - well, even if Klaus had warned her what his powers are, that shows she is someone who can handle a lot. Ben knows how horrifying his powers are. How horrifying he is. Even glimpsing that for a few seconds is enough to send most people screaming.
Some of the tension in his gut loosens when she says Klaus hadn't really gone beyond talking what was relevant to his own life. He should have known that. Should've trusted his brother more. But it's been a point of conflict, before. Klaus is so open, compared to Ben. He just talks about stuff in a way that Ben doesn't - or couldn't. ]
I've tried to be here for him. But I- there's been so much I haven't protected him from.
[ Now that he'd asked those questioned, acted so intense and strange, if he just leaves things without explanation, what is she going to think? He's sort of painted himself into a corner here where, in being so insistent on knowing what she knows, he now kind of has to explain why, and in doing so, tell her a little. But he would rather do it, himself, than worry about how someone else might have framed it.
So he speaks, words coming out in fits and starts, painfully. Saying them is like pulling teeth, but at least he can manage it. Because Julie had said she killed someone as a kid, too, so maybe she won't look at him too differently, after. ]
Sorry to- be weird. I - thought maybe he'd told you more, because of what you said. Because, with the Umbrella Academy, I mean, we all... killed people. Even Klaus a couple times. Just... um. [ The silence stretches, taut and awkward, until Ben manages: ] Most of it. Was me. I was the- whenever a lot of people needed to be dead, that was my job.