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Cho's open log for October (and September, if desired)

WHO: Cho, with a few starters for specific people. Also open prompts for anyone else.
WHAT: meal prep/serving/clean-up, walking various random animals through the city, morning five mile runs, reflection on just how flipping weird life is now, and misc.
WHERE: all over, really
WHEN: I'm fine backdating anything into the month of September, as I kind of vanished, and also doing anything through October. Basically, it's a two month spanning open log.

NOTES: I can't stand writing in action spam (takes my head right out of the writing), but I don't mind reading it. (Just please don't use tiny text for your brackets.) So if you only write brackets, and don't mind our styles not matching, you can write brackets and I'll write prose and we can still have some awesome CR.

A - mess hall kitchen
Being a cafeteria cook on an alien planet had never been any part of her ten year plan, but life has a funny way of turning tables on you. Cho has had the rug pulled out from under her often enough to know that the only way to survive it is to adapt. In that regard, her family has done her a huge favour with their neglect and disregard. She knows how to adapt. It's not always easy, mind you, but she can do it.

Making food for her fellow displaced refugees, it gives her a very concrete and tangible purpose. People are hungry, she feeds them. It's simple. It's easy. It's also yielding far more immediate and gratifying results than her work in the fish hatchery and bio-lad with Annie and Finnick, which is incredibly slow going, getting the place even functional.

This work is also putting her in the path of new people. Even if it's only to greet them in the mornings and evenings and ask them which of the hot food selections they'd like. She's learning to put names to faces, and feeling accomplished and appreciated, and it's wonderful. Doubly so when someone offers their time to hep her out, and triply so when they don't just want to clean and chop and fetch and carry, but are interested in learning. She loves teaching. She misses it. And while cooking is a far cry from biology, it's still some form of wisdom that she can impart.

[[OOC: If you want to assume that your character and Cho have seen each other enough to know names and bare basics about one another, feel free. If you would like to assume that they've already been helping her with meal prep and stuff, also feel free to do that. Or have them meet for the first time. Whatever works.]]

B - walkways - exercising animals or running (mornings only)
Cho's various trips to the upper levels while the power was out and her subsequent experiments have not netted her much useful information. What she has ended up with is a menagerie of various random animals who have all become far too comfortable with the idea of being brought their food and kept safe from predators for her to ever feel anything but guilty about releasing them back into the upper levels.

So they are her responsibility now, and while some of them are perfectly content to just stay in their little makeshift enclosures, some of them get fed up with her room, and want space. Which she provides in the form of walks. She really wishes that she had a dog. It would at least be something vaguely normal. Instead, she can be found at random hours of the day with varying combinations of cat, hedgehogs, sugar glider, chinchilla, lizard, and quite a few random bits of fur and fluff that don't quite match up with anything she's used to. High energy, though, hence the excursions at random times of the day, when they seem particularly restless.

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The animals are not the only ones that need exercising. This place wears and grates and it ends up driving Cho kind of nuts sometimes. She's made a promise to not wander off without a buddy, but that doesn't mean she can't go anywhere.

So, sometimes, there are on animals with her while she goes wandering around the walkways on the safe levels. Instead, it's just her and her earphones, her feet eating up the miles as she hurtles herself through the concrete maze that's becoming depressingly familiar. While she might prefer to work out her excess energy someplace a little more private, she won't break her word, and so her morning runs end up taking her back and forth along the residential walkway, as she racks up the miles by retracing her footsteps over and over again in front of the common areas. At least, this early in the morning, it's fairly deserted.

Of course, if she does ever come across someone doing the same thing, well, they would qualify as not going anywhere alone, and would open up a lot of the rest of Anchor as an option for her workouts.

C - spa
It's not a patch on the ocean, but having a functional and clean large body of water to swim in is still doing wonders for Cho's sense of well-being. Not to mention, getting her hair properly cleaned, and the occasional mani-pedi when she allows herself that much time. She favors the area that looks like a Japanese hot spring, doing a lot of floating silently in the large communal area, her hair fanning out around her, floating on the surface of the water like an oil slick. it almost feels like being home, which usually ends up with a tight prickling in her chest and a lump in her throat, but she fights through that. It's good to miss something. It's far better than having nothing you care about.

Most of the time, she's silent, and anyone else arriving might not notice her for a while. Especially if she's tucked herself away in some corner, sitting in water that's shallow enough for it, but deep enough to leave only her nose and above out of the water. She can definitely see the appeal of this place for fun and relaxation, but most of the time, she's either steaming herself in slightly too hot water for homesickness, or swimming laps with the setting as cold as it will go... not that lukewarm is particularly cold.

D - observation deck
The more random detritus from random worlds that shows up to populate the landscape, the more Cho finds herself inexplicably drawn to the observation decks that look out over the desert. She doesn't have a desire to go and see most of it up close, and not just because she'd be on her own in a dangerous place, but viewing it from this distance is strangely compelling.

So she does, settling herself on a bench, or on the floor with her back leaning against a bench, almost always with the animal carrier containing a cat and a giant caterpillar. Sometimes she lets them out to wander, though the most the caterpillar ever seems to do is hang from the edge of her seat, viewing the world from his strange upside down vantage point.

! WILDCARD

Wandering around in general, hanging out in her room, any other location or activity that you're interested in that I haven't talked about. Feel free to either come poke me to plan something, or to just go for it here and we'll make it work on the fly.

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[ He also didn't know when Cho was going to turn up at his door for their little shopping expedition, but it isn't as if he's got anything that can't be rescheduled. So he waits around in the apartment, nose buried in an old hardback copy of some extremely long Russian novel. He's still got it in one hand when he opens the door, giving her a nod of greeting before he tosses the heft volume onto a chair, scooping up an empty backpack and shutting the door behind him.

Cho's ensemble is very... bright, and very her, based on the little Ben has seen of her. He's still in his usual of black hoodie and black jeans and black jacket, and that's not about to change any time soon.

What is going to change? Is the first impression he had made, of being this overemotional basket case. God, he can't believe he'd burst into tears the first time they ever met. Just absolutely mortifying. He is going to be so competent and sane and chill on this trip and hopefully it'll just erase all of that nonsense from her memory, thanks. ]

Got a big grocery list from Klaus and a couple other folks. You know what you're looking for, too?

[ He slings on the backpack as he's speaking, leading the way towards the stairs that will take them up to the surface. ]

Every time Cho has seen Ben so far, including her brief encounter with him yesterday when they made plans to venture out to the Whole Foods together today, she's been prepared to run for her life. Her running gear all follows a pattern - it's coordinated, usually cute, and very bright. Helps to keep from being run over by a stray taxi in the gloomy pre-dawn. Doesn't help so much for stealth, but you can't have it all. She has to work with what she's got on hand.

"More or less. I know what things I want to get again. I didn't have a ton of time on my first trip there, and I didn't really know what to expect. Now I do." The zombies had thrown her for a loop. She's not sure why, looking back on it. Ridiculous and terrifying things happen here all the time. Why not zombies? But they'd thrown her off of her game, and it was only later, in the safety of the city, that she'd thought of dozens of things she should have gotten. "I'll try to be quick and efficient." She assumes that's his concern.

Ben is right that her first impression of him has been made, but it's not as bad as he might be thinking. Cho thinks that he's a kind person, with a big heart, and a desire to take care of others. She thinks more of him for his willingness to show emotion, and for the things he's overcome in his life, not less. Though she would definitely not call him chill, she also wouldn't call him insane. She finds his presence very calming already.

Ben figures that she is saying she'll be quick because she thinks this is some inconvenience to him, going with her in . But it isn't any trouble in the least - he'd been meaning to go back soon, himself - and so he gives a loose shrug.

"Doesn't matter to me how much time we take, seriously. Just as long as you stick close by me. That's my only rule. I can't protect you if you wander off."

It might be common sense, but he just wants to get it out there right now. He is responsible for her safety, for the next hour or so, and that's something that Ben takes very seriously. He's died before and it's no fun and he'd rather not be even partly responsible for Cho dying.

The trip up the levels is passed mostly in small talk, catching up on the goings-on in the Anchor, new arrivals and people who have left and the work that is being done to make the place more livable. It's easy speaking to Cho on these topics, and Ben is bolstered by it, feels his normal awkwardness and hesitation around speaking gradually ebbing. By the time they're in the radiation suits and headed out the door, he's feeling glad that he was around to agree to help her with this.

"So, okay. Let's just - go over this, real quick. Hopefully we can sneak around and it won't be necessary, but... if any of them come at us, get behind me. Don't go too far, but - give me some space. Don't run for it unless it's looking real bad or unless I tell you to, alright?"

Even the smallest suit dwarfs Cho slightly, but she can move well enough, especially with her comfortable active wear underneath it. "Got it. Stay close. Ten foot radius shopping, five foot radius if anything tries to eat us? You say run, I run." Just to be super clear. She likes being super clear. Working within clearly set parameters is her happy place, professionally speaking. It's where she knows who she is and how she belongs.

"Would getting to high ground help? Those shelves can take my weight." They're industrial gorilla shelving units, and she barely cracks triple digits. She climbed them last time, she knows it's a safe bet to get her off the ground. Or maybe he'd prefer that she stay on the same level. Once again, she doesn't know exactly what Ben's protection looks like, so he'd know better than her where she should put herself.

Ben considers for a moment. Five feet should be enough, if he has to use his powers, if she is standing behind him. Then again, if he ends up using his powers in front of her, there's a high probability that she will end up running away, no matter what he says now. It's what people do. They see him use his powers and they run, screaming and sobbing and retching.

So he's really hoping he won't have to. Because Cho had been really, really kind to him. She is nice, and friendly, and... normal. He'd rather she not find out he's a repulsive monster, just yet.

As soon as that thought drifts through his mind, Ben sighs. A little prickle of guilt in the back of his mind reminds him that Cole wouldn't want him thinking about himself like that. Thinking about them like that. He's supposed to be practicing a healthier outlook. But after so many years... it's not very easy.

He shakes his head as if he could clear it of all those thoughts, and is grateful for Cho's question. Gives him something else to focus on.

"Probably not necessary. Just stay behind my back. That's the important one. But we probably won't have to worry, anyway, so..."

Then they're moving together, out the door and towards that incongruous grocery store. There are no zombies in sight when they first slip in - a good sign. Maybe a lot of them had split off, to guard that new truck that had shown up.

Cho's grin is bright, and her nod enthusiastic, when she gives him her thumbs up. She's got it. They're good.

Inside the store, the lights are lower than she remembers, but it's also considerably less crowded, which has to be a good thing. Cho has linked their suits, so they don't have to yell to be heard through their protective layers. "Looks pretty good so far. Should we just go row by row?" The things she needs, she's going to find all over the place, and while slowly meandering around the place might be a fun way to kill time back home, it's not exactly efficient. She also doesn't know what's on Ben's list, or if he already knows where to find it all.

Almost as an afterthought, and purely for curiosity's sake, Cho takes out a geiger counter and looks at the readings here inside the store. Huh. She shows Ben the face of the thing. "How do you think that works? That there's radiation all around us outside, but not in here? Doesn't seem like it should be possible."

He shrugs; he's got no clue how radiation works, and he isn't going to pretend otherwise.

"Doesn't seem like it should be possible is pretty much just the tagline for this whole weird planet, huh?"

Ben reaches up to the neck of his radiation suit, loosening a few fastenings and then unhooking the helmet. He lifts it off his head, letting it fall back, held in place against his shoulders, like the hood of a very strange hoodie. He knows from experience he can re-fasten it quickly, and it's pretty stifling to keep it on when he doesn't have to. Besides, he can see better with it off, and he's more worried about keeping watch right now than anything else. It's too dim in here to risk missing something in his periphery.

"Row by row."

It becomes clear, as they move down the first row, that Ben does, in fact, know where things are, and that he's memorized his list. He moves quickly, eyes only darting to the shelves briefly before scanning the ends of the aisle. At least all that training was paying off, now. He remembers the tests, memorizing building layouts, being given only a glimpse of what was in a room and then having to repeat it back with his eyes closed. Other kids might have been learning about radiation, but he was learning how to navigate a hostile environment...

He becomes curious as they go just what it is Cho is going to be cooking, with the components she picks up. His own list is mostly things for Klaus, ready-to-eat snacks or makeup or other things of the sort. He gets some basics for himself, too. Even if cooking is something... new.

They're on the second to last aisle and Ben is starting to feel relaxed enough that he might ask Cho what she's planning, there is a huge clatter, very close by. Ben whirls around, arm flung out automatically to shove Cho behind him. The sturdy metal aisle was not as long, on this row, to make room for a cardboard display of fruit that has long ago withered into unrecognizable husks. That display had gone flying as a huge zombie just plowed through it, lurching towards them. It is missing the lower half of its jaw, and it must be a good six and a half feet tall.

Ben's heart is racing, pumping adrenaline into his bloodstream. He tries backing away slowly, aware of Cho behind him, how close she is, even as he keeps his eyes locked on the zombie. It follows after them, big steps deliberate, intent. Hunting them. There are others behind, drawn to the noise, coming up faster, scrabbling and moaning, and Ben can smell the decay. His breaths are coming fast and thin. Could they make it just running?

"Cho..."

But before he can give any further instructions, that big zombie in the lead leaps at him, and Ben's response is automatic, drilled into him by years and years of training. He doesn't have time to worry what Cho will think or if she's far enough away, he just throws open the portal, and the tentacles come shooting out, huge and awful and writhing. They make quick work of the zombie that had jumped, catching it an inch before it can touch Ben and heaving it into the air, where two of the tentacles tear it messily in half.

The pain is awful, and Ben grits his teeth against it, vision swimming as the tentacles toss away the zombie parts and move on to the others. Their fury is terrible, and they make quick work of the other half dozen or so zombies, bashing them against ceiling and floor and one another, ripping them apart like wet cardboard and raining gore down on Ben and, unfortunately, Cho as well. He manages to keep on his feet, until the last zombie is gone, and then he shuts the portal and staggers, falling against the nearby shelf and barely catching himself before his legs completely buckle.

Edited 2019-10-02 22:53 (UTC)

Cho chuckles a little when Ben says the thing about the tagline, because he's not wrong. "This whole place feels like being in a weird sci-fi movie, you're right." Still, she undoes the catch and folds her face shield back into the helmet of her suit to give her a little more visibility and to make her feel less like she's breathing into a fishbowl. Plus, her nose started itching pretty much the moment that she closed herself in, and now she can scratch it. Once she's done that, she takes off the entire helmet, letting it hang behind her like Ben has done. It's far more comfortable, and her thoughts are along a similar line - she'll be able to get it on quickly enough, even while running.

Cho is picking up more of the spices that have been getting the most use in the kitchen. She's not the only one to cook in there, so she can't just go by her own needs. She wants everyone to be comfortable and have what they require. She's also stocking up on supplements, and foods rich in certain nutrients and essentials. Dried fish is factoring in in a big way, since she knows the hatchery will take a while to really start producing. She's also picking up a lot of homeopathic remedies. A lot of them are total hogwash, but there's some truth in some of it. Raspberry leaf will help an upset stomach, and arnica will genuinely relieve inflammation. Not as good as actual medicine, but something, and things break down in the city so randomly. She'd rather be prepared. She picks up some specific things for friends, as well.

She's impressed with Ben's focus. Her own list is memorized, as is the layout of the store, but she knows that her brain is atypical. Near the end of their trip, and good luck so far, she's prepared to ask him about it. It feels comfortable enough that she might be able to. He's opened up to her before, after all.

Then the clatter, his lightning quick reaction, and a terrified whimper tears its way out of her throat. The thing in front of them is terrifying. It's not the decay that bothers her, or even necessarily the idea of a zombie. It's what she knows will happen to her if it reaches her. She trusts Ben to keep her safe, but that does nothing for her instinctual fear. It's emotion versus logic.

When it leaps, she cries out. It's a strangled sound, something between his name and a sob, laced through with absolute dread. Then, everything shifts. Everything. She can't see exactly how it happens, but the tentacles are impossible to miss. Some people might close their eyes against the scene of carnage, but Cho's are fixed wide and awe struck. The whimpering stops, as does the crying. Cho has no idea what's happening, but it's incredible. Messy and clearly unnatural, but incredible. She doesn't move a muscle until Ben staggers, falling into a shelf, and that's what spurs her into action, her feet slipping a little on the gore spattered on the floor as she moves to shove herself under his arm, give him something to lean on. "Are you all right? Did any of them get you?" It didn't look like it, but she can't be certain, shielded behind him as she was.

There is a little half display of reusable tote bags made from raw cotton and woven hemp. Cho tears one down to wipe at Ben's face, trying to clean him up enough to show her if he's injured, if maybe a piece of flying debris or something cut him. The bag is quickly saturated, and she uses a second one, as well, trying to keep the rough handles from coming into contact with his skin. She can't carry all of their things and Ben, but maybe she can move just him. Nothing they've picked up is more important than him making it back safely.

The truth is, it's not always the same, when he uses his powers. Sometimes, it's hardly enough to make him adjust his footing, after. Sometimes, it is like this, leaves him stunned and disoriented for a good minute or so. The only common thread he'd been able to notice was whether he had time to prepare, how braced he was when he opened the portal. This time, he had had to do it so fast, and so it takes some moments before he can move, the lingering pain is so intense.

As soon as he can, though, he jerks away from Cho, stumbling and reeling, but finding his balance. All that stuff he'd been trying to practice, to teach himself not to think of his powers as disgusting, flies right out the window. Ben's breaths are ragged and loud and panicky as he grabs more of those totes and tries to wipe the rest of the blood off him, much more roughly than Cho had. For just a few seconds it is like he's a kid again, drenched head to foot in blood, smelling it all over himself, feeling it run down the back of his shirt, tasting it in his mouth. But none of it had gotten into his mouth or eyes, today, and there are no injuries.

He gasps, with great effort, "I'm okay."

Then he turns, looks at Cho, and she is bloody, too. It is spattered in her hair and on her face and Ben flinches, seeing her like that. Urgently, he asks, "Are you hurt?"

When Ben pulls himself together enough to yank himself away from her, Cho lets him go. He’s upset, and she doesn’t know if she’s the cause, but she certainly doesn’t want to make it worse. Maybe she grabbed him too hard? Or in the wrong spot? Maybe she hurt him. She has no clue. So she lets him stumble away, and when she follows it’s very slowly, with her hands held up to show that she’s not reaching for him.

She shakes her head, glancing down at herself, and then moves to wipe away some of the mess. “No. I’m fine. I mean, I banged my shin when I slipped on the-- the them.” A quick look at the gore still all over the floor. Nope. Not gonna look at any of that. Specifically that part that is definitely an ear. “They didn’t get me, though. You were great. None of this is mine. You saved us.” They’re safe. He kept them safe. That’s the most important part. “Should I find you some water?” Does he want a minute alone? She could probably stay in the ten foot bubble and still find a water bottle. It’s Whole Foods, after all. Can’t swing a cat without hitting a five dollar bottle of water. Or does he want to keep her close enough to see?

As soon as Cho reassures him that she's not injured, any more than a bruise or two, Ben lets out a shaky sigh of relief, and covers his face in his hands. There are still little patches of damp on his skin from the blood, and there's so much of it in his hair, he can feel it. But he works on wrangling that awful, yawning panic inside him. On compressing it down and pushing it away, at least until they're somewhere safe, at least until he's alone.

Cho's continued concern is what helps ground him the most, in the end. When she offers to get him water he gives a shake of his head, dropping his hands and meeting her gaze.

"No, please - I promise, I'm fine. Trust me." Then, a little stilted, but what's the point of lying now? "When... I have to use my powers really suddenly like that, it can knock me off balance for a couple seconds, but I'm totally fine now."

He looks around them at the devastation. There are zombie bits all over the floor, and gore spattered up the items on the shelves and some of it on the ceiling. Ben's stomach twists, and he has to fight back a wave of nausea. You'd think he would be used to it, by now. But it somehow manages to stay awful, every time.

"We should get out of here. The- sound might bring more of them."

It had been loud, he thinks. The whole thing feels fragmented but he remembers Cho making terrified sounds, maybe saying his name, and the clatter of the display falling, and of course, it is a loud thing, when a zombie is bashed to death against a floor. If any other zombies are within hearing range, they're probably lurching their way over.

Edited 2019-10-04 00:54 (UTC)

Cho's mouth opens and closes a few times in her search for the right words. The question is not one of trust, it's one of concern, and Cho is deeply concerned about Ben. She's worried that he's pushing himself, because that was-- that wasn't intense. That was whatever level is about sixteen steps beyond intense. Cho has seen magic, shocking enough in its own right, but she's never seen anything like that. It was amazing, and terrifying, and inspired a fair amount of awe and curiosity. So much curiosity. The questions are screaming in her mind, fighting to reach her mouth, push past her lips. She swallows them down.

"Are you sure you're all right? I trust you, but that was-- unbelievable. You looked like someone cut your strings when it was over, and you're still so pale." Underneath all the-- right. Focus. "There's still radiation outside. We need to find something to tape up your... suit." Her hands have automatically moved to wipe away the mess there, look for the tear. Which is not present. In the slightest. Aside from being fouled with the decaying mess of the walking dead, Ben's suit is in perfect condition. "How...?"

"I'm sure."

The words are automatic, distracted, as Ben looks for signs of a new wave of attackers. They should be leaving now and Cho just keeps asking questions, keeps worrying over him. Shouldn't she be doing the opposite, running as fast as she can, in absolute horror? How could she bear to be near him, much less wipe the blood from him the way she'd done moments before.

His confident reassurance that he's fine is a little undermined by how badly his hands are shaking as he moves to reattach the helmet of his suit, leaving streaks of blood from his fingers even as he gets it fastened. Even as Cho is looking for the damage to his suit's main body, he is reaching over to help her pull on her own helmet, fastening it for her and only realizing a moment late what she's even doing, what she's concerned about.

"It's not torn. It's - there's a radius, about four inches out from the portal, they don't interact with the matter in our world. That's the only reason I've still got a stomach."

You know, 'cause that's going to answer everything.

But before she can ask anything else, Ben is taking her hand, clutching it in his and tugging her towards the exit, back towards the Anchor.

"We gotta go when I say go, remember, that was the- the deal. We can talk more inside."

He's sure he has explanations to give, that Cho is going to get over her shock and all that kindness will slip away, replaced by loathing or fear or both. Ben wants to make sure he's got her somewhere safe before she inevitably recoils from him. So he keeps it together, staying focused on the mission, until they're out of the Whole Foods, crossing that short gap, until they're inside the Anchor itself, in the small room that leads to the decontamination zone. There are hooks for the used suits, ready to pull them away to be washed free of radiation (and in this case, gore) and processed.

Ben makes it there, waits until the door closes, and then lets go of Cho's hand.

"Okay. Okay - we're safe, now."

Ben is right. That was the deal. He says they need to go, and Cho doesn't protest, just follows his lead. She promised, and she keeps her word. So she clams up, and follows his lead.

She's silent and obedient until they get into the room, until they are safe. She shucks her suit quickly, before she even deposits her gym bag full of shopping to be run through the decontamination process. Comfort levels aside, it's covered in zombie goop, and it's icky, and does not smell great. She also strips off her hoodie, which is gore spattered where zombie goop got down near the neck of her radiation suit. Maybe the decontamination process will keep it from staining? If it doesn't, well... small price. Much of the fabric is still clean, and she uses it to wipe her face off more thoroughly. There's nothing for her hair but a proper wash, but the soft absorbent material cleans off her skin easily. Then she takes a step toward Ben, still no fear on her face, and begins to attempt to clean him up a little more, as well.

Her shock is gone, and there is no revulsion sweeping in. "I've never seen anything like that. You said... portal? They're not inside of you? How much do you weigh? How do you access them. Where do they exist when they aren't... out?" The questions come as slowly as she's able to make them, but it's clear they are just the tip of an iceberg. Her eyes are shining with curiosity, and she is holding back a flood.

The flood of questions isn't really a surprise, to Ben. Of course she wants to understand. She isn't some random, invasive person, either. She'd just seen something awful, been scared half to death. He owes her an explanation.

It's just... hard. Talking about himself.

He doesn't strip down as quickly as Cho, moving with a resigned and grim determination. The feeling of blood drying on his scalp isn't a great one, but it's not making him panic any longer. He gets himself out of his radiation suit and then fishes in his bag for something Klaus had asked for - organic makeup remover wipes. Sorry, Klaus, but Ben is cracking those open, offering one to Cho before using one on himself, doing his best to get as much of the blood off now as he can.

As he does, he answers her the best he can.

"I can access them because I've practiced. A lot. So that I can control the portal. Open it, and close it, when I need. Direct them and control them, a little. They aren't inside me, exactly, although I can... feel them. They live in another dimension, and I can be a doorway to it. I don't know how. I was born with powers, the same as my other siblings. They can do different stuff, but none of us know why. We just can."

One of those questions had stood out, though and he blinks, wiping some blood from behind his ear as he asks:

"How come you asked how much I weigh?"

Cho accepts the wipe gratefully, using every single bit of it on both sides to clean not only the blood and gore, but also all the makeup from her face and her hairline, and then she goes as far down her neck as she can before it's entirely soiled. Which makes Ben the first person in Anchor to see her without even the tiniest bit of makeup on her face. It's possible that he didn't even know what to look for, to know that she's been wearing makeup every time he's seen her. Of course, having literally shadowed Klaus for so many years, he may be able to tell. It's notable mostly because, contrary to what one might assume, she doesn't have a pressing need to wear a full face of makeup every day, and a scaled back routine when working out or swimming. She has no large blemishes one might want to cover up, no issues with her features that require contouring or correction. She looks a bit less defined, of course, but essentially the same.

She has more questions that she wants to ask, but his first. Fair is fair. She drops the makeup wipe into processing, fairly confident that it won't be coming back to her. Not that it matters.

"Well... It happened quickly, but... assuming scaled up cephalopod musculature, with possibly added fluid bladders for rigidity outside of a liquid environment, or perhaps even cartilage, and the increased muscle density to support the added volume?" She clears her throat, and her words come more quickly and confidently. "Even operating on the most efficient possible anatomical framework, that must have been at least five hundred pounds of limbs. You certainly don't move like you weigh six hundred... sixty? Pounds?" Her brow wrinkles, and she bites her lip. "I'm not great at guessing weights for people. But you don't move like you carry that weight, though... you can feel it?" That's interesting. She notes that, files it away for later. "Evolution tells us that the chances of any animal's anatomical structure developing with no waste or inefficiencies at all is highly unlikely, so it could conceivably be seven hundred pounds. Easily. Given the discrepancy, one would think that every time a limb makes contact with a solid object, you would be flung around, being the lesser of the masses involved by quite a large margin. But you aren't. I just... wondered. How. It worked..." She loses steam quickly, in a stuttering awkward fumble.

Ben is too concerned with getting as much blood as he can out of his ear to think very much about seeing Cho makeupless; if he were thinking a little more clearly he might recognize that as an act of trust on her part, but right now he is, to say the least, a little frazzled and distracted.

Her interest in the anatomical aspect makes sense. She is a scientist - that had been clear from their first meeting. Animals of all kinds interest her. And now, Ben thinks, he's a more interesting animal than he was before. Nausea roils in his guts, but he tells himself it's because of all that adrenaline still running through his system. He's fine with Cho asking questions. It's no big deal.

So he keeps his voice neutral, though he's not looking at her as he clarifies

"Oh. That's not really what I meant, when I said I can feel them. Sometimes there's a feeling of... pressure? Against the portal. But mostly I meant. Um. I can feel their... mood. Anger or - hunger. Stuff like that."

The truth is, he can't really report much on his sensations while using his powers. The pain is so intense he isn't really aware of the rest of his body, or his surroundings. It drowns everything out. Everything is pain and pain and pain, and underneath, desperately trying to urge the creatures to go after the right targets, not to hurt anyone he loves or any innocent bystanders.

Shoulders hunching a little, Ben continues talking, but tiny signs of him growing upset are starting to show even through the

"I don't know. I've - used my powers in fights a lot, and I don't get thrown around. I don't know how. Maybe the portal itself cancels it out. The same way my clothes don't get ripped."

It's only ever his body that feels like it's being ripped in two. Ben chews at his lower lip. Maybe if he makes it clear how alien they are, Cho will lose interest. Not that there is anything wrong with her being interested. He is so totally completely fine obviously.

"And they're not cephalopods, exactly. I mean, you're not the first person to make the comparison but they're from entirely a different dimension. We can't assume things based on how biology works on Earth. Besides, I've seen the place they live, I think, and it's not underwater."

Cho doesn't have the time to feel jittery about being exposed, because Ben just keeps on dropping all this fascinating information like it's nothing, and she gets swept up in it. Besides, he's not looking at her. Maybe he hasn't noticed. It pushes that feeling of discomfort at letting anyone see her in a less than perfect state, the disappointment she knows her family would be feeling at her slip, to the back of her mind where she doesn't have to contend with it.

"You have an emotional link? An actual empathetic link? That's amazing. How have you seen their world? Are you able to see what they see? They're not built intelligently for--" Cho is suddenly smacked with the perfect recall of a series of articles she read about deep space exploration in a scientific journal, and her enthusiasm bursts out of her in a rush. "Is it space?" It had been only theory for the longest time, but the science made sense. "Do they live in space? In the actual vacuum, I mean? If their body has adapted to move through a single atmosphere of pressure in a gravity free environment with a resistance to the cold, that means they have the potential for practically limitless--" Cho runs out of air mid-sentence and the brief little record skip of her realization that she has to breathe also flicks the awareness of Ben's discomfort. "I'm sorry." Was the makeup wipe a subtle hint that getting clean was what he wanted? She's horrible at subtle hints.

Maybe he's trying to be a gentleman and waiting for her to go first? Of course he'd want to get clean after what happened. "You must be so uncomfortable." Cho's not exactly feeling fresh and perfect, but it's always been easy for her to set aside physical discomfort when she gets on a roll. "Why don't you go first? This takes a while." She waves a free hand at her hair. "I'll come through in... fifteen minutes?"

Or if she hears a body hit the tile. She's still concerned. Can't just shut that off.

Ben is, in fact, very uncomfortable. It's not for the reason that Cho means, he suspects, but it's easier to just pretend that what's really bothering him is the blood in his hair and not being asked questions like this. He is glad, really, that she's not scared of him. Maybe this is her way of dealing with the fear, or maybe her scientific impulses are just stronger than her sense of self-preservation.

He gives a small nod, shuffling towards the door to the decontamination showers. He pauses, though, on his way in, hand on the door. Might as well answer her before he goes in, so he doesn't spend the whole time inside weighing how he ought to say it. He knows he'll just dwell on something else unpleasant, but still...

"I said I think I've seen it. I'm not completely sure. I get these dreams sometimes. So I can't be sure if it's a vacuum. I know it's dark. Completely dark. And - different. Just completely unlike... here. It's too hard to put into words."

And with that he walks silently through the door, and into the showers. He keeps in mind what Cho had said about fifteen minutes, cleans himself thoroughly in that time, as if he could scrub everything bad - physical and not - off him. Then he walks out the other side, reclaims his decontaminated clothes and the bag with all the supplies he'd gotten, and he waits in the next room.

Sounds alien to her. Could potentially be a vacuum. The total absence of light. She wants to ask him if it's cold, if he feels weightless, if he can sense the sensation of needing to breathe, but first she needs to let him get clean.

She waits exactly fifteen minutes before going into the shower room. She does so with her eyes closed, though, counting on her memory to keep her from running into anything. She calls out for Ben, and only after receiving no answer twice, does she open her eyes to the empty room.

Cho doesn't expect that Ben is waiting for her. Cho rarely expects that anyone is waiting for her. So she takes the time to wash her hair twice, stands under the spray until the water runs crystal clear. It takes a while. She doesn't mind. It's a pleasant surprise that all of her clothes are waiting for her on the other side. Even the makeup wipe, which is kind of hilarious, though it's razor thin and falls apart in her hands the moment she tries to pick it up. Removing all the contaminated material basically removed the whole wipe. It's kind of funny. Not funny enough to try and take it with her, though. She gets dressed and puts on some minimal makeup, but leaves her damp hair down to air dry. She walks into the next room with her lipstick still in her hand, so familiar with it that she doesn't need a mirror in order to apply it.

Ben sees her walking in and stands up from where he'd clearly been sitting, waiting for her. She's putting on lipstick, and her surprise at seeing him is clear. He can't remember precisely - the panic had faded in the shower under the spray of water and left everything in a kind of light haze - but he guesses he wasn't too clear that he would wait on the other side.

As explanation, before she can say anything, he offers:

"I said I'd look after you. I'm gonna make sure you get home safe. All the way there."

The Anchor is less dangerous than the outside, it's true, but that doesn't mean it is entirely safe. Ben is not letting Cho out of his sight until they're near the residential area.

Then, without planning on it, he blurts:

"I know you probably have a ton more questions but- do you think they can wait? I think - I think I need some rest, after all that. But you know where to find me, and... we can talk, later."

He really doesn't want to talk in the future, honestly, but he especially doesn't want to talk, now.

Cho doesn't respond to his insistence that he's going to walk her home, but a bright smile spreads slowly across her face, washing over her features like a sunrise. Surprise and happiness and a touch of amusement. She twists her lipstick down, snaps the cap back on, tucks it into her pocket, all without looking down. "You waited for me." No, she was not expecting that, but she is glad, though it does make her wish she'd done something with her hair.

She's especially glad that he looks a little bit better. Not entirely, but a little bit. Not as pale. She tamps down all the questions that rush back as soon as her surprise fades a little. He wants a reprieve, and she'd have to be a pretty awful friend to put her own curiosity above his comfort. It's been a heck of an afternoon. So, instead, she files them all away for later. "I feel like I should be the one walking you back."

Ben shakes his head, getting to his feet. He picks up his bag before walking through the door with her, back into this strange place they both call home now.

"Honestly, I'm fine. I've had a lot worse."

He seems like he means it, too, that it's not an empty boast. But fortunately, she doesn't ask what that means, and the two of them make their way back to the safer, more familiar parts of the Anchor. When Ben says goodbye to Cho, leaving her at her room, he is glad, she made it back safe. Even if that meant using his powers... it was worth it.

They see each other from time to time after that, just in passing, never really at a moment when they would get a chance to talk. But Ben isn't all that surprised when he gets a message from Cho asking if he'd eaten that day. Ben knows Cho is one of the ones who prepares meals most consistently for the communal dining hall, so maybe she noticed him absent that morning, even though he's usually very regular about breakfast. He texts back explaining he'd had breakfast in his room a while back, and she invites him to come to a particular room - he knows the area it must be in from the numbers and floor, but he hasn't been there before.

Ben just assumes she wants to have lunch together. Unexpected, sure, but maybe she just wants a little company? He's happy to provide it. So he says he'll be over and turns up about fifteen minutes later, in that same all-black outfit as ever, knocking on the door before poking his head in.

"Hello, Cho? It's Ben."

The room doesn't exactly look like a cozy place to have lunch together, but... maybe this is where she works?

She's been doing her best to not crowd him. Her solution to that impulse is to throw herself into work. Ben is her friend, and she's fascinated by his situation, but that hasn't taken away any of the other issues she's been dealing with. Food production being high on that list. They've been lucky so far, but there's no guarantee that will last.

When Cho hears Ben's voice, of course it's at a moment when she can't just rush over to the main door and meet him. "In here," she calls, her hands steady as she injects small does of genetic material into the nutrient goo in a series of Petri dishes. The hatchery might not be ready for a full cycle of fish yet, but the moment it is, Cho wants to be ready to go with the ideal species. "Down the hallway, first door on the right."

When Ben finds her, she'll be bent over one table in the middle of a large lab area, intently focused on the task at hand, and with a slight variation on the clothing he normally sees her in. Her scrubs are a little more functional, but no less comfortable than her workout wear, and they follow in the theme of coordinating colours. "you made good time. I'm almost done with this. Just give me a minute."

Labs generally speaking are not Ben's favorite place to be, but he does his best not to listen to that initial, instinctive whisper of unease in the back of his mind. Honestly, when had he let himself get so biased? Peter works in a lab - or, well, R&D is close enough to one. And it's not a bad thing that Cho is a scientist. She's probably doing important work to make this place a bit more livable. Time for him to grow up and get over his baggage already.

With that little self-critical pep talk done, Ben walks down the hall and into the door indicated, spotting Cho at once amidst the equipment under the bright fluorescent lights. She seems like she's doing something extremely delicate that can't be interrupted, so he moves into the room quietly and doesn't interrupt, coming over to a place where she'll be able to see him and then just leaning his hip against a counter and waiting, arms folded. There's no impatience in his body language, though. Ben had spent 14 years as a ghost. He's pretty immune to boredom at this rate, and patience comes easily.

Cho certainly looks like she knows what she's doing, wielding that tool to... do whatever she's doing to those little pools of goop in the glass containers. Ben watches, keen-eyed but silent, until she is done.

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