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redshiftlogs2019-10-06 09:46 pm
benhargreeves) wrote in redshiftlogs2019-10-06 09:46 pm
[closed] can't we give ourselves one more chance?
Who: Ben, Cole, Ami
What: Cole and Ami need to Talk™ and Ben is there to mediate and make everybody feel safe and copacetic
When: October 7
Where: The library
He had agonized over where would be the best place to do this, once Ami had given him the heads-up that she felt ready. (Maybe throwing that party was good for her mental health, she felt steady enough in herself to face all this). His first thought had been the library, but then he'd doubted that, questioned it. Is that just where he feels safest? That's not important here. What is important is making Cole and Ami both feel comfortable and safe, helping them to hear one another and overcome their fear of one another so that they can help each other out.
But he'd listed all the other options he knew in the Anchor, and each had its own set of drawbacks. In the end he'd returned to the library again - it's brightly-lit and quiet, with comfortable chairs, nooks if either need a moment of privacy, but not convoluted enough that the space will pose an issue.
So he picks the time - late morning - and brings in some snacks (such as they are). That's definitely Grace's influence. Ben wishes briefly she were here, that he could ask her if there is anything he is missing, how to be sure he is helping and making them both feel okay.
He arrives before either of the others; he'd come fifteen minutes before the time he'd told both of them. He had also said, to each, to reiterate, that he ws there for them, there to help, and that he wouldn't let anything bad happen, while he was around.
What: Cole and Ami need to Talk™ and Ben is there to mediate and make everybody feel safe and copacetic
When: October 7
Where: The library
He had agonized over where would be the best place to do this, once Ami had given him the heads-up that she felt ready. (Maybe throwing that party was good for her mental health, she felt steady enough in herself to face all this). His first thought had been the library, but then he'd doubted that, questioned it. Is that just where he feels safest? That's not important here. What is important is making Cole and Ami both feel comfortable and safe, helping them to hear one another and overcome their fear of one another so that they can help each other out.
But he'd listed all the other options he knew in the Anchor, and each had its own set of drawbacks. In the end he'd returned to the library again - it's brightly-lit and quiet, with comfortable chairs, nooks if either need a moment of privacy, but not convoluted enough that the space will pose an issue.
So he picks the time - late morning - and brings in some snacks (such as they are). That's definitely Grace's influence. Ben wishes briefly she were here, that he could ask her if there is anything he is missing, how to be sure he is helping and making them both feel okay.
He arrives before either of the others; he'd come fifteen minutes before the time he'd told both of them. He had also said, to each, to reiterate, that he ws there for them, there to help, and that he wouldn't let anything bad happen, while he was around.
no subject
Most of his unease has to do with Cole; he's tense and Ben can feel it, because Cole is standing so close. This is why he's here. To make sure that things don't go off the rails, the way they had last time. To keep both his friends safe from alarming one another.
So the moment that Cole says he wants to leave, in that tiny voice, Ben acts. After all, Cole doesn't ask for things for himself. Almost never. He wants to leave, they're going to leave.
But Ben isn't going to do so without even saying something.
He looks into Ami's eyes, not sure she's even seeing him, and interrupts her.
"Ami, Earth to Ami. Cole and I are gonna go now. Text me later if you want help with the code or - if you wanna talk."
And then, protectively steering Cole so that his own body stays between him and Ami, Ben gets them both out the door, shooting one last glance over his shoulder and giving a little wave of goodbye and a small smile, if she's in any state to see and recognize it. Things had gone well. So much better than he'd anticipated, honestly. And he's pretty sure this is the best way to keep it that way. He had been useful, after all. The minute things started to get uncomfortable, he separated them. And now, next time they meet, hopefully it will be a little easier still, and then a little easier still. It is progress, and the beginnings of an answer to the mystery of the writing on the wall...